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“We all probably have that one little secret that we don’t want to share but somehow end up doing so anyway, well here is mine. My friends and family never guessed it, but I hated myself and blamed everything that has happened to anyone on myself. I had no self confidence about anything I did, like ice skating when I passed 2 levels in 1 season, that I had made it to league finals in swimming when I never had even swam on a team before, somehow all of this didn’t matter and I never felt so undeserving to live ever.”

I was still growing mentally
I already lived a pretty independant life
I wasn’t organized
I didn’t have a focus
I was Nieve
And full of Cliches

Harlick skate company had been a major brand of ice skates, and has been one of the top skates to have in the skating world. They are based out of the Bay Area, starting in an old factory in San Francisco, now in a small shop in San Carlos. They are a local business and have produced skates for many Olympians, but they were losing a lot of business a few years ago because of a factory brand, Riedel. This is an important reason for why we need to be aware of these smaller businesses that have a huge impact. There are only a few ice rinks around, one of which is the Winter Lodge, yet another important local business. Many skaters and coaches at the Winter Lodge own a pair of Harlicks, each custom made to the skater and his or her needs. Harlicks skates are handmade and innovative.

Imagine a young girl, one with an amazing light in her eye. This girl has had that light dimmed from having two mothers, one loving and kind the other a monster who should have never had kids. Unfortunately this mother is one in the same; she had dual personality disorder. The young girl had issues with school and learning, she hated it with a passion, and she had no encouragement and no confidence to pursue what she loved. What if I told you that this broken down girl blossomed into a woman with a confidence that showed in her eyes with that same light that was gone for years. Virginia Becker was the small cub who was left alone, but became stronger through every experience and every fall that she had. Now, many years later, she is a strong and powerful lioness, who is protective and caring, with an ability to think of everyone else first before herself.

Dreading Memories

I am exploring the feeling of dread when preserving memories,

I sometimes live in the past, never look at whats ahead, those memories are the worst

I can’t bear to even allow my mind to go there, to those horrible places, the horrible things, that I had done to myself,all emotionally straining, so I live in the past in order to prevent it coming alive in the future.

The one place, the one state of mind, the one thing that thing that I use to avoid my brain from wandering

The stretch, hold, flex, release, focus, all mind clearing for I am truly grateful for my yoga mat

With all of its sticky, sweaty, rubbery, sponginess, creates a coin flip situation where those awful regretful memories come out…

Or they stay in, and away; away from my peace of mind the mat creates a fine balance

Sometimes I fall, so I press the mat harder and harder till my hands are bruised sometimes I go too far, my hip strains, and I fall over in agony trying to soothe the shooting pain.

But I get back up, and try again, the adrenaline rush makes these movements so addictive, the achievement of peace of mind that keeps me coming back

Exercising those boundaries, and walls of which I created, and are always being broken back down making me raw and exposed and my soul naked.

I am ready for college

I am feeling successful

My writing reflects me and what I want to express, clearly

I am majoring in international Business
I want to communicate with many people of different cultures
I hope to go and work for the UN, and work with other countries on Women’s Rights
All of the writing has allowed me to be clear and persuasive when communicating with others, my ideas and my passions