Illusory

In design we learned how to use Adobe Illustrator to create a piece that used symbolism to represent parts of ourselves. We tried to creatively represent ourselves on a deeper level than is shown on a day-to-day basis. We learned to use the pen tool, which creates curved lines and fills inages. We also learned how to trace images, work with layers, create shadows, and use different types of text and symbols.

In my essay, I talk about my experiences with beauty and what it has done to me and my confidence. I admit to a lot of poor choices and warped thought processes influenced by the media and it's representation about beauty. The essay also mentions how I didn't tell anyone what was happening to me or how I felt. I know that what I did was stupid but I can't take it back, so I must carry it with me. No matter how bad it was, it's a part of me now. I've had a lot of trouble coming to terms with that, but I've accepted it.

My illustration is a mask, representing the illusion I (and quite a few other people might I add) hide behind. I try not to show pain or weakness, I always want to be seen as a strong individual. Even when I was completely broken, when I was at my lowest point thus far, I wanted to make sure no one saw that I was having a hard time. Not only was I told that I should be unattainably beautiful, I thought I had to hide what I went through to get that way. My illustration is about that desire to be effortlessly perfect, to hide whatever discomfort or pain you feel with yourself.